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the responses to the last entry were overwhelming. i had no idea so many people would reply. [ i also hope it wasn't the same person posting like five times because then it's just getting my hopes up. ;_; ] but wow! thank you for responding! it's really intriguing and i don't know about some of you but it just feels so.. relieving. you get a brief seconds worth of this relief sweeping over you. because it's there. the secret has taken physical form. it's out there.

it made me happy. :)

and now to procrastinate from my psych paper and test tomorrow, here is a giant survey. about love. ?! i know.

i also find it somewhat intriguing and slightly messed up that i like doing my calculus homework more than my psychology homework. it's not that it's just less worse, but i WANT to do it. hahah. i guess i have a good teacher to make me want to do math! this is indeed strange. [ i was NEVER a math person .. until now apparently. ]


~The Ultimate Love Survey~

~Survey______~mania~

1) How many times can you honestly say you’ve been in love?:: one and a half. :)

2) How many serious boyfriends/Girlfriends have you had?:: serious? none, lmfao.

3) When was your first date & who was it with?:: when i was a freshman in high school. it was with dan johnson.

4) Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?:: no, i don't think there is just one person for everyone in the world. if that were so, we'd be even more miserable than we already are.

5) When do you think that you’ll get married?:: sometime in the distant future or never.

6) Do you think that you should become friends with someone before dating them?:: of course.

7) Do you believe that opposites attract?:: yes they do. but from my perspective, it never lasts as long as people think it does.

8) What traits do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: a sense of humor, honesty, loyalty, a sense of being laid back, and INTELLECT. holy shit, there is nothing more hotter than a guy that is smart. and i'm not talking just booksmarts. see: my ridiculous not-so-crush crush on someone in my myth class and it cannot be the pretentious kind of smart either. a guy who is a wonderful writer is also a huge turn on for me. i like artists.

9) What is your dream date?:: going to a show in the city, having some dinner [ aka maybe a quick slice of pizza ] and then going back over to his place to sleep or watch a movie. simple but it would totally reel me in.

10) Have you ever had your heart broken?:: oh of course. who hasn't?

11) Where do you want your wedding to take place?:: i don't know. i seem to have this odd affinity with baroque and neo-gothic cathedrals. XD; oh if it was that and in italy, i would die of happiness.

12) What kind of music do you want to have played at your wedding?:: sigur ros. i don't know, it just came out. but it would be cool.

13) Where do you want to go for your Honeymoon?:: italiaaaaa. or greece. or germany. hell, europe! let's go around europe together!

14) What do you think about long-distance relationships?:: i'm all for them if you can handle them.

15) Your thoughts on online relationships?:: cool with me.

16) Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger than you?:: older. although recently i've found myself attracted to guys one or two years younger than me. but it's nothing more than a fleeting.. thing. to tell you the truth, i tend to really have an affinity for guys two years older than me. what is with the 1986 men. seriously.

17) When did you have your first kiss?:: playing spin the bottle in 8th grade. oh how i regret that.

18) Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?:: a LOT. i had a bad habit of falling for my friends in earlier years.

19) Are you a hopless romantic?:: hopless. that amuses me. but i don't know. maybe. maybe not.

20) Are the romantic type?:: not really. i think i get embarassed at the thought of single dates.

21) Do you believe the statement, “Once a cheater always a cheater?”: it really depends on the person.

22) Do you read romance novels?:: nope.

23) Do most of your stories & poems you write revolve around love?:: actually no! i just realized this.

24) Have you ever fallen for a pen pal?:: akira and tatsuya emails. er, no. :|

25) Have you ever been in a love triangle?:: .. almost? XD;

26) Must love be felt to be truly understood?:: abso-positively-lutely.

27) Are you a shy lover or a vibrant lover?:: shy.

28) Do you believe that marriage is something sacred?:: No. It should be, but it's not. <-- i agree completely.

29) Are you for or against couples living together without getting married?:: do whatever you want!

30) Have you ever asked someone out on a date?:: ha, no.

31) Ever been stood up on a date?:: no, i haven't gone on many dates lmao.

32) Have you ever loved someone it hurt & you cried?:: .. i am guessing this is asking if i have ever loved someone that hurt me and if i cried. and if it is, the answer is yes.

33) Are you/Have you ever been married?:: oh duh, who hasn't?

34) Did you go to prom, if so, with who?:: no. and if i do go to senior prom, i'll probably end up going with friends. i remain dateless.

35) Do you/Did you enjoy school dances?:: i didn't have many in my lifetime.

36) How many kids do you want to have?:: oh god knows. nothing exceeding two. i can only push a child out of my vagina so many times before i'm afraid it'll just rip open.

37) Is there someone who you really like at the moment?:: sort of. i don't know what it is. i feel silly.

38) Have you ever been secretly in love?:: hoyeah.

39) Have you ever sent someone something on Valentines Day?:: no.

40) Have you ever had a secret admirer?:: i.. don't think so? i wouldn't know anyway, it's kind of a secret.

41) Have you ever been a secret admirer?:: yes. too many times.

42) Do you read Shoujo manga?:: yes.

43) Do you usually fall for a wrong guy/girl or the right guy/girl?:: i feel like i am the wrong girl to fall for a certain guy.

44) Are you a lover or a fighter?:: both i suppose.

45) What do you think about interracial couples?:: well, pretty much every one of my "relationships" i have had were all interracial. the only non-interracial one almost happened but didn't. never got together. so basing off of that, i give it a definite thumbs up.

46) Do you believe in divorce?:: definitely.

47) Are you parents still together or are they divorced?:: "separated" whatever that stupid shit means. it's a euphemism for divorce, i tell you.

48) What is your favorite color on the opposite sex?:: brown. i just like dark brown on guys now for some reason? black is always a classic.

49) What are your views on gay marriages?:: i heart.

50) Do you think its okay for best friends to become couples?:: only if you're really willing to take that risk and chance.

51) Have you ever broken someone's heart?:: yes, sadly.

52) Have you ever been given or given roses?:: no. what do you think i am?!

53) Do you have an ideal mate?:: i suppose. i don't know if that is valid to say though since every single boy i have been involved with have no.. particular pattern. there is no "type" or similarity between ANY of them. i just like to experiment around for now. maybe when i get older i'll have a better sense of my ideal mate.

54) Have you ever been to a dating site?:: no, but i bet you have.

55) If so, what did you do there?:: i bet you had fun with that, didn't you.

56) What do think of E-harmoney, match.com etc?:: i think it's crap and match.com needs to stop making so many goddamn commercials because i watch a lot of tv now and yes, i KNOW THAT THERE ARE 805,117 DANCERS AND 98 PENGUIN BUFFS. SO PLEASE. LEAVE ME ALONE!!

57) Have you ever met someone you met online & fallen in love with them?:: yes. you must all think i'm crazy now.

58) Have you ever been engaged?:: no.

59) Has someone ever proposed marriage to you?:: only on RAGNAROK ONLINE. HAHAH. it was for the money. >D yeah this is seriously why i don't have a boyfriend. i'm pathetic.

60) Are you the one who makes the move or do you wait for them to make the move?:: i wait. i am in no way the aggressor. i will try to make a tiny move once in a while, that turns out as either just STRANGE or entirely platonic. i don't know if that counts. but in general, no.

61) Do you flirt or are you not a flirter?:: i'm sorry, after being friends with erin, i hate flirting with the undying embers of hatred. i think it's shameless and tasteless and it just makes me nauseous. especially since most guys are too DENSE to realize that there is some bimbo trying to throw herself onto him in an oh-so-subtle way. i spit at your shameless dignity!

62) How do you act around the guy/girl you like?:: oh god it is terrible. it is seriously like watching a plane crash in slow motion. i'm just entirely not myself. i say stupid and random things [ that are not random in the funny sense, random in the ok... what the fuck sense ] and i repeat myself or i revert to talking about myself too much, or i sound like some dumb shallow girl, etc etc. all in all, it's terrible. i want to shoot myself in the face every time i talk to a boy i like. hence, why i am single.

63) Have you ever seen the movie The Notebook?:: no, go away.

64) What is your all time favorite romance movie?:: love actually.

65) Do you read Romance novels?:: no.

66) Favorite Video Game Romance?:: GRRR, TIFA AND CLOUD FOREVER! actually, i would have to say yuna and tidus. i know a lot of you probably hate that game or just dislike it a lot more than the others but their love seems so.. sincere. and so eternal. [ see: x-2 ending. and x-2 perfect ending. ] i just love tidus and yuna because i just love how it developed and how it ended, or how it didn't end. the guardian and the summoner. it's amazing because a guardian must protect the summoner at all costs until his/her pilgramage is over [ aka death ]. tidus tried to overcome colossal barriers for his love for yuna. he tried and defeated RELIGION. the constant divine figure governing all. it's just.. i'm sorry, i love it so much.

67) Would you get remarried more than twice?:: i probably would give up most of my hope after two remarriages.

68) Imagine your 79 & your spouse just died, would you remarry after they died & you were married for 60 years?:: no way.

69) Is remarriage betryal?:: no.

70) What do you think of pre-arranged marriages?:: frightening. too archaic.

71) Do you know anyone who has had their marriage annulled?:: no.

72) Does romance make you gag?:: it makes me roll my eyes sometimes.

73) At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?:: early. like 2nd or 3rd grade. i don't know what there was TO notice but i did.

74) What song do you want played as you walk down the aisle?:: hoppipolla by sigur ros.

75) Does Love conquer all?:: it could.

76) Are most High School kids in infacuation or love?:: infatuation.

77) Who was your first love?:: a guy named chris in elementary school. there was this girl named julia who was a bitch to me and she always used to make jokes that made fun of me and he laughed at them. not a nice first love, huh?

78) What’s the longest you’ve ever liked someone?:: roughly a year for a constant. for an on and off but still going, four years. hah.

79) Do you have any friends who are already married?:: nope.

80) Would you give up everything for love?:: it's a really foolish and headstrong thing to do. you have to be serious about it.

81) Love songs, yeah or naw?:: sometimes.

82) Will your life be incomplete without love?:: of course. we're not just talking romantic love. also platonic love; my friends!

83) Who was your first date with and where did you go?:: dan johnson, the mall.

84) Who gave you your first kiss?:: sean davies. ahahahaha. my first kiss: a troublemaker with ADD. i love it. let's tell my grandkids this.

85) Can you remember your very first crush?:: i told you.

86) First guy/girl you held hands with?:: cam. and he didn't give a choice either. lmfao.

87) First guy/girl you hugged of the opposite sex in your teen years?:: god i really don't know.

88) Have you ever suffered from insomnia because you loved someone so much?:: yes, hahah. i'm dumb.

89) First time you got flowers from someone of the opposite sex?:: never.

90) Have you ever celebrated valentines day with a significant other?:: nope.


well, that was lovely!

.. someone talk to me on aim. >>;